Monday 6 May 2013

What would you like to hear?

My obsessions in my life have varied since I can remember, if you have anything that you think I could be interested in or would like to hear my opinion on just let me know via my email amymcgowan93@hotmail.co.uk or my gmail at amycharlottemcgowan93@gmail.com

Saturday 4 May 2013

Living the "little fish" Life

The world is massive. There are so many people. It's crazy. Stop and think about it, think about all the different families in the world, from western society to underprivileged countries to tribes in forests.

In amongst all the chaos in the world, there you are; there I am. 

We live in a world where most of us are continually trying to get rich or die trying. We live in a world where the media tells us what to believe and what to think. We live in a world where our own people sell off our land back to ourselves. We live in a world that is completely unbalanced.

But, when did this start? When did this ethos of running in this mad rat race start? Who knows, but watch the following clip from Alan Watts a philosopher who asks the question "what if money didn't exist?"

What if Money didn't exist?

And then watch the next clip in which a youtuber asks 50 people what they would do if money was no object and imagine the world if we all lived by this mentality since the beginning of time? Would this work? Would we have peace?

50 People: 1 Question

It seems from both these videos that the majority of wants is to help people whether this be through music or from passing on knowledge and experience. Just imagine the possibilities of growing up a family with this mentality so they can pass it onto their family and their kids to their friends.

I'm in 3rd year at uni, where everyone is currently going crazy, wanting jobs with massive firms, some being nastily competitive and studying constantly. Here I am, lying in my bed reading up on philosophy meanwhile my exam is in a couple of days. But I just can't get to grips with how dysfunctional growing up is in this society and at the moment the importance of learning about marketing models deems to be less important.

I'm starting to think that I don't want to be 60 and only can say I lived chasing the corporate ladder.

Because that in terms of our whole existence is just not good enough to me. In this other video by Alan Watts he explains the theory behind what we are and a little bit about life and why we are here.

What Are We? - Alan Watts

He basically concludes that we are the big bang, this magnificent process. He emphasises that the big bang is not the past but in actual fact the process is current - it's happening right now. It's happening at this moment while you sit and read this on your smart phone or on your laptop. Think about the time you have wasted today? What could you have done?

I will finish off by linking you to another video by the great Alan Watts as he talks about the real secret as to why we are here discussing that the term "future is only a concept", a philosophy of life I feel needs to be educated at greater depth in our lives.

The Real Secret of Life - Alan Watts


Monday 8 April 2013

Independence or Babies? Or Both?

My Mum and I are both over thinkers and both love talking about everything, including the subject of society  standards. We got onto the topic of children and I admitted to her that even though I would like to raise a family I don't think I will ever be selfless enough to give up my life for another human being i.e. a child. She replied "Amy that is not selfish and never think that you have to give up your life for anybody just because its the norm".

Since finally telling someone about my real feelings on the unlikeness that I will become a parent in the future I have began to wonder what are the pull factors that women have when they choose to have a baby?
Everyone claims to have a plan of their future when they are like 12 coming out with statements such as " well I need to get married by 25 so i can have a baby by 28 but I need to be with my boyfriend for at least 4 years until we get hitched.....blablablablablablabla" Then they reach 20 and become finally a part of the real world. The idea of me having a baby in the next 10 years makes me laugh so hard as I imagine I will still be as immature and unprepared to give up my life yet.


According to Wiki (the very reliable website....) the amount of people in this world has exceeded 7 billion.

7 billion? I mean seriously, wow.

We have a crazy amount of people on this planet that it comes to mind that I guess one less child (from myself) would not be missed. However by the time i am 40 will I finally wish to settle down and regret being part of one of lives greatest miracles? Could my potential child be what the world needs? - OK maybe that's a bit too far but you get my point. 

My Mum and Dad got married very young and got divorced when I was one so I don't remember anything from that period that affected my life up till now. From my Mums experience she has always advised me to hold back on having children if I wish too and to concentrate on "me".

As selfish as this may sound when I am lying on my deathbed I want to be able to say that I have done everything that I wanted to do and that no stone has been left unturned. The most important lesson I have learnt in my first 20 years is to not regret one thing, and as cliche as this is its my regrets and lessons can perhaps shape the life of the child that I may wish to have in the future or of friends and family. 

I have this picture of my future of living in the city in a beautiful penthouse running around in the day in business heels and going out for after work cocktails - although this image is slowly changing from my current relationship. To find a mix is going to be difficult in the future if i wish to combine my want for money and success with the potential want for family life. 

This post is definitely a ramble but the conclusion i'm trying to make to you is to do want you want, be selfish, be independent and be you. Yes life will change completely if you have a child - if you let it...
Looking to the inspirational working mothers allows their to be hope that i will maybe one day be able to juggle both wants and pass this moto onto my children. 

Obsession Pug Puppy Style

Onto a lighter obsession...... pugs!

Earlier this year I came down with a pretty serious case of tonsillitis meaning I spent about two weeks in bed and what did I do in these two weeks? I sifted the internet for the best pug videos...

So here is some of my favourite pug videos that you must watch on a sad day to cheer you up or even a happy day to top up your happiness:






Crippled Pug Puppy ( this one is v.sad but cute )





Marriage- unnatural and unnecessary?


lately i am having an obsession with how our society ended up the way it is. especially how society tells us we are supposed to “love”. apparently we are supposed to get married and stick to these vows despite anything. some countries even dictate which gender you will legally be allowed to marry.but is marriage natural?

should or can we realistically be happy in a monogamous relationship for the rest of our lives? or are we supposed to be remain unhappy but loyal to our spouse as we are bound to the vows we made years ago when we were both different people?

i have a boyfriend, we have been going out for over a year now and I can honestly say I love him (lots & lots) but I don't think I will be able to physically promise to him (or any other person) that i will feel the exact same for them in the next ten years or for the rest of our lives. It’s not just because i’m scared of commitment or because society would probably say to me “well maybe he’s not ‘the one’ ". It’s because i believe no one can truly stick to this promise.

People change, relationships change, circumstances change.

And that’s ok.

Society needs to stop focusing on divorce rates or wedding percentages, it needs to concentrate on the happiness of our population, the happiness of our next door neighbors, the real happiness of our best friend and the happiness of our partners at that time.

Marriage is a lovely idea but times have moved on and perhaps this idealistic lifestyle isn’t so ideal anymore